May 5th, 2011


Why Am I Even Posting This?

I opened livejournal with the full intention of spilling out a long rambling thing about how I'm feeling lately and all the turmoil and crap that's going on inside me but now I'm here I can't think of a word.

Basically I feel like crap even though my life is pretty good so then I feel guilty for feeling bad about 'nothing' and then the guilt festers away and makes me feel bad.

Also I'm lonely and getting a bit sick of spending pretty much every evening by myself.

This is pretty much a 'wahwah why am I single / why do I feel so completely unappealing / why does it feel like all my friends are happier then me / why does it seem like I'm not really living.

I shouldn't complain. I know I shouldn't. I have a job, I have a home and money, no-one I know is sick or suffering or really struggling.

I have no reason to feel bad, which makes it worse that I do. I feel like I'm just whining and I just need to suck it up and grow up.

... I thought teenage angst problems stopped when you got to your twenties?? :(